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As Lovers Go |
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It may be sad that you cry at the thought of me,
but it's the thought that counts
As long as you understand I never want tears in your eyes,
Especially if I am the reason for your cries
So where does this leave us now?
All I know is that I love you,
but all I am thinking is what I can do...
What I don't know is if all of this,
will turn out so very good or so terribly bad
I have gone mad,
crazy for you
I realized today that I would give anything,
I would do anything,
for you
I realized today this feeling I feel is worth fighting for,
I will concede no battle, I'll fight any war
So where does this leave us?
All I know is that I love you,
but all I am thinking is what to do...
I promise I will always keep you safe,
I'll do everything I can to keep that gorgeous smile on your beautiful face,
And that all of your secrets are always safe with me forever
I promise.
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[26 Feb 2005|10:53pm] |
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I haven't been on live journal in forever. MySpace.com really is so much better. I apologize to myself.
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[28 Nov 2004|05:35pm] |
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I went to North Carolina for Thanksgiving, and it was awesome. I've never been any place like it; so peaceful and tranquil and gorgeous. Everything was beautiful. We went to Chimney rock and the view was amazing, then we went to the biggest house in North America, the Biltmore Estate. The only thing I can say about that place is that it is priceless. No other house in the world is or ever will be as untouchable as that one. Getting to see all my family was pretty awesome too. It was by far one of the best Holidays I have EVER had...
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[10 Nov 2004|05:22pm] |
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This is actually from last June, but I just found it so here:
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Sitting, I'm writting.
Writting, I'm thinking.
Thinking? Overrated.
I wish life was less complicated
These thoughts trickle down,
From my head to mt pen,
From my pen to the world around me.
The world's surrounding.
It's too confusing.
Back to square one,
This block is lonely.
There's nothing to see,
Nothing but me,
Yet, I can feel their eyes.
I'm quiet for once,
Don't know what to do.
Can't think, can't breathe, can't move.
Too much to go, too little time.
It feels like I might be dying.
Overwhelmed is the word,
Many know it well,
Some well enough that they end up in hell,
Just a little bit early.
That won't be me, that won't be me.
Back to square one,
This block is lonely.
There's nothing to see,
Nothing but me,
Yet, I can feel their eyes.
As I think of a way, to let out my pain,
I wondered how I got here.
What led me down this awful path?
How can it be erased?
This curse that I constantly have to keep fighting,
All of these thoughts, as I keep writing.
So I'm back to square one,
This block is still lonely.
There's nothing to see,
Nothing but me,
Yet, I can feel their eyes.
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| Circles Again |
[09 Nov 2004|03:59pm] |
I know I haven't updated this in a long time, but I haven't had a computer for a long long time either. This is the first time I've been to work in a couple weeks, so I'm taking advantage of this chance to update this. This is something I wrote earlier today...
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Damn this girl,
Damn this life.
I try to inspire,
But she's lost her desire, for me.
So here I go,
Running in circles again,
But I'm running on empty
My head is everywhere, But where it should be.
I picutre her out, But it's not with me.
I doubt she wanted to be together, Forever, or even a week.
So I'll go out and seek, For a girl that won't hide on me.
Damn this girl,
Damn this life.
I try to inspire,
But she's lost her desire, for me.
So here I go,
Running in circles again,
But I'm running on empty.
Why oh why, Can't she just lie,
So I can be happy for once.
It's me who's always conceding the war,
While the rest of the world only gets more.
Maybe I try too hard.
Can that be bad? Is that my fault?
I guess your love was just a fad,
Or was never there to start.
Damn this girl,
Damn this life.
I try to inspire,
But she's lost her desire, for me.
So here I go,
Running in circles again,
But I'm running on empty.
I stopped, thought of what I did,
And finished finding nothing.
You must've been the something that went wrong.
There I was,
Running in circles,
For the last time.
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[12 Oct 2004|01:00pm] |
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Homecoming was fun. The most fun I've had in a long time, actually. I think it was good for everyone to go out and party for a night... it helps clear the soul. lol. Lately I've been feeling more tense, but for some reason still relaxed. We take the PSAT's tomorrow, which is actually cool because we get out of some classes. It sucks having a broken computer at home, because I can't keep up with my music as much as I'd like. I'll put on MTV or Fuse or something whenever I can, but it's not enough. It helps me, and not getting a chance to listen to it is starting to piss me off. But, I can always throw in the 'I heart Alana' Taking Back Sunday CD and get away for a while. I feel bad that I haven't been updating this at all being so busy. It sucks not having time for anything anymore, but it at least I'm never bored. I don't think there's anything else I need to talk about for now...
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[29 Sep 2004|05:56am] |
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Have you ever spent your day thinking about the same person?
I like this mind set.
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[14 Sep 2004|04:26pm] |
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Paul created a livejournal. I'm so happy for him. Alana is confusing the shit out of me, as usual. I don't know how I can be so angry at her one minute and forget anything ever happened the next. It's that damn laugh. Who am I kidding, it's that damn ass. j/k. I haven't posted in a long time due to lack of computer, which I can rarely use at work anymore. I need to get mine fixed soon or else bad things will happen. I feel like writing but nothing comes to my head. You can't force it, so there's no use in trying, but I know I have something to say. How frustrating is that? I truely hate my school. My best friends are the only things keeping me sane there, as well as a few acquiantences. School is going alright, which, compared to last year, is a complete understatement. I hate having to do work, but the benfits outweigh it all. My dad went out and got me brand new batting gloves and a bat bag for 'being a good kid,' or being normal for anybody else I know. How great is that? I guess that's all I have to say for now... I hope I can update this as soon as I get a chance.
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[25 Aug 2004|04:50pm] |
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Wow I haven't updated this in the longest time. Two weeks I believe. I've been so caught up in school and work that I just haven't had time for anything really. I've always been one of those people who have to stay up 'till 1 or 2 in the morning, but this year I've been just passing out dead tired at 10. It's something that's never happened to me before, and although I enjoy staying up late, it feels to get a good nights sleep. I'd also just like to say it feels SO good to be care free. Night.
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[14 Aug 2004|03:45am] |
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The first week of school is over I guess. It went by pretty darn fast. Seven periods in one day doesn't blow quite as much as I thought it would. I really enjoy all of my classes except for Science or whatever they call it (on top of that, my teacher is a bitch). I got a chance to update this so I decided to take it, as me and Derick sit awake at the computer. Till next time, goodnight.
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[09 Aug 2004|03:57pm] |
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Yesterday Melissa and Katie came by and picked me up, and we went to Ft. Lauderdale and didn't do anything. It was cool. Anyway Nicole is really cool. I have talked to her over the past few days and she is soo nice. And Alana got back from Michigan today. YIPPIE! lol. Ok bye bye.
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[05 Aug 2004|04:44am] |
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I can't sleep. I think I'm an insomniac. Now how the hell am I going to stop this before school starts? A bottle of Nyquil a night? I don't know. I'm feeling deep, like I want to solve all the problems of life right this moment, but at 4:45 in the morning, life seems like it's paused. Everything seems tranquil. I move into my new room at my dads house tomorrow (hopefully), and we'll try and get all the things I need within the next week. Other than school starting in 6 days, life has been better to me lately than it has been in a very, very long time. New friendships, the departure of a pain in my ass, a new love forged. My outlook is quite fine. What I don't know is where I go from here. What am I supposed to do? I guess I'll figure this out as everything continues to unravel. For now I'll take it all in and enjoy it all.
On a seperate note:
After trying desperately to find words to get out what I wanted to say about past events in my life, I found out what I was trying to say has already been said. So without wasting any more of your time, here is the song I tried to write:
John Mayer- Love Song for No One
staying home alone on a Friday
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof
after all the crushes have faded
and all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
searching all my days to find you
not sure what I'm looking for
I'll know where
when I see you
until then I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
a love song
for no one
I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away
I'm tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
so tired of being alone
so hurry up and get here
you'll be so good
you'll be so good for me
I know you'll be so good
for me
for me
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[01 Aug 2004|06:14pm] |
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I have realized that one day when I no longer live in a 1,000 mile radius of Boca Raton, I will have a sceued view of women, therefore creating massive misunderstandings and inevitably leading to "bad luck" with the ladies. This town is so superficial. Proda bags and Louis Vatton rule over love. Fake tits are dominant over love. Just a random thought from my pittiful mind.
"As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder how you're making out."
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[28 Jul 2004|06:39pm] |
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Today was the best day ever. I've been waiting to feel this good for months. That is all.
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[26 Jul 2004|09:49pm] |
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Indecisive is the word that best describes
The only women that I've loved
It seems they can't decide
Or is it me? Could I be the one that's torn between?
Not a chance. Maybe so. I don't know.
I do know how I feel; how could they be confused?
If it was true there'd be no questions; there's only one right direction
So make a left or make a right at the fork in the road
But make sure you pick the good side; these roads aren't built very wide
To be determined...
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[22 Jul 2004|06:51pm] |
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Lynn Herman is the most amazing girl ever. Mua ha ha.
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[15 Jul 2004|01:25pm] |
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My birthday was amazing. I went to rapids with my family and we all had an awesome time. my brother and my dad and my sister are the coolest people ever and they made it into the best birthday i've ever had. then i got to see my mom, the best mom ever, and we had fun on our own. then i got to play poker and that was fun as hell too. all in all it was just a great experience. i have the best family anyone can ask for.
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[05 Jul 2004|11:39pm] |
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Just got back frm a Marlin game; we had amazing seats. I mean right there seats. It was me Paul and Player Pimp Andy, and it was fun as hell. They lost, but wtf it was fun anyway. I've been enjoying my summer so far. Fourth of July was fun at Holly's with Paul and Lauren. Good Ice Cream, great girls, that my friends is fun. And the bowling alley Saturday was fun as hell too. It's been nothing but fun lately. I can't wait 'till my birthday... the fun doesn't stop now. Oh hell no. lol. Well, nothing else to write about. Update when I can.
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[29 Jun 2004|12:29am] |
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Last night I played poker, $10 buy in, seven people. I came in fourth, pretty damn good if I say so myself. Cody won. Duh. Played mini golf tonight. Came in second. Lost by two strokes to... Cody. lol. Eh, I'm just kinda bored so I thought I write. That's all I got to say. Night night.
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[24 Jun 2004|08:06pm] |
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OK so I haven't updated this is a whiiile. My moms computer is like broken down and needs an oil change or something, so I'm basically using any other computer I can use. My hair was straight for a day and a half and it looked good I must say. Other than that I;ve been doing nothing for the last week, except for today. Paul came over and we went to see the bestest girl in the whole wideworld, Miss Alana. Family Guy rules. Tennis sucks. I went home, now I'm chillin' with my main freshman Mr. Corey. I'll update this when my life has another interesting turn, or when I can find another computer.
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